Some ways I believe I am achieving said "balance":
Deciding to be healthy. I work out five times a week. I listen to my body and do what is comfortable to me on that day. Sometimes I spin, sometimes I run, sometimes I do workouts while watching TV, sometimes I do yoga. Just depends on my mood. I also made the decision to be a vegetarian and have stuck to it. I don't miss meat at all anymore (well, sometimes when I see fried chicken it makes me want to cry a little, but it's not too bad).
Disposing of "unhealthy for me" people and surrounding myself with "healthy for me" people. In doing this I have made more close friends than I've ever had before. One good person leads to another good person and so on. I have a close-knit group of friends who I love dearly and have each helped make my life complete.
Putting more time and energy into my living, breathing boyfriend. Because he's the relationship that is able to give back to me now. I will always honor, love, respect, remember, and cherish my late husband, but I finally realized that Nick deserves all the same. I realized I have the capability of giving that to both of them. Aka - I'm more bad ass than I thought.
Staying off of the computer a little more. I admit, I am an internetaholic. Recently, however, my Internet has been a bit screwy so I've taken the time to just stay off of it - and it has been quite lovely, actually. I've had more time to do things like, I dunno, pay bills, hang out with people in real life, do chores, go to the beach, and just be in the world right in front of me - all that old-school stuff people used to do before computers.
Focusing on positive goals. I've finally come to terms with the fact that I do, in fact, have a future ahead of me, and I'm finally beginning to humor goals and dreams. Degrees. Traveling. Writing. Wandering. Adventuring. Loving. Laughing. I'm excited about it all.
The haze is lifting. This is not a dream, Karie, this is real life.
At the risk of jinxing myself - Life is good, right now. Life is good.
For giggles - three of my favorite people jamming to Purple Rain.
Kelly, Amber, Nick <3