Sunday, May 6, 2012

There's nothing I can do about it

I'm having a moment.

How did I get here again? And why am I still trying to do... anything? Remind me what the point is? 

I miss him. And I'm thoroughly exhausted by it. I've felt this way for too freaking long and I don't want to anymore. 

Most things in life can be tweaked. They can be changed, rearranged, redone. Death... being a widow... there is nothing you can do about it. I will always be this. I will always feel like this. That fact gets me so frustrated with life. 

Seriously, God, please take this back. I don't want it.

SICK of it. So tired, dude. 


4 words of wisdom:

Ang said...Best Blogger Tips[Reply to comment]Best Blogger Templates

I'm having a moment myself today. Granted, it's nothing like yours, but I wanted to sympathize with you.

Life is hard. Some days it's harder than others. You need to figure out a way to embrace it, as hard as that may seem.

I know how it feels to be mentally exhausted by missing someone. Little things every day remind you of what once was. Some days it's a lot of things, other days it's hardly anything.

However, I believe in you. Just give it time.

Anonymous said...Best Blogger Tips[Reply to comment]Best Blogger Templates

Karie, you are so very brave. Hang in there sweet heart. Time does help heal (at least it doesn't hurt quite as bad...)
So sorry you lost your precious Cleve to this heinous action (war) (and the lack of enough action on the part of those who sent him).
I live with PTSD every day, and the only thing worse that I can imagine would be to lose him.
Sending love and support your way.
Kerry

Dana Graves said...Best Blogger Tips[Reply to comment]Best Blogger Templates

apparently, many have been having moments this week. Ive had one of those god-i-cant-have-kids-and-every-one-is-pregnant days. Sorry you had a moment, but judging from your past posts, you are a strong girl who shakes it off, picks up, and carries on. Mighty bright torch you carry dear. bless you. :)

Cooper said...Best Blogger Tips[Reply to comment]Best Blogger Templates

The scars upon our souls should be made by those we love most. This is the second time I've written that today — it is as true as it was the first time.

I don't envy you, but I think you will come out of the tunnel whole.

The point is up to you.

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