Life has been extremely busy. I've come to my blog a few times in the past week or so fully intending to write a post only to feel overwhelmed and close my laptop. Let's try this again...
Where to begin.
April 1st has come and gone again. Cleve's alive day - not even sure I should call it that anymore - was a little more difficult to swallow than I expected. I went from perfectly fine to blubbering mess - right in front of Nick. That is not allowed in my world, but I did it anyway, and it sucked. Alas, I survived. Six years down.
This month in general has been pretty good considering, though there is a fog in my head that won't go away. It's effecting most of the things in my life to a degree (ex. It's really hard for me to focus on this post right now), but I'm refusing to let it hinder me.
School is still going good. I got a B on a couple of tests and felt defeated, then realized how stupid I am for feeling that way over a B! I'm fine now. I make myself laugh because when I was younger I could care less about grades. Now I want to make the Dean's list. I... want to make the Dean's list. That's just funny to me. Yet, I'm obsessing over it. It has really been a task to keep myself focused on why I'm really here - this is not a competition; I am here to learn and to get a degree. I still want to be the best, though... must. prove. self.
Oh, my friend Andrew (Walking to Listen) called me the other day and told me that on his travels he more or less ran into President Bush Sr. I was groggy from just waking up from a nap, but I believe he had dinner with him and his wife Barbara. Amid their conversations, Barbara proceeded to tell Andrew that she had read the blog I wrote about us meeting and loved it. Then Andrew and the Bush's just sat around talking about our story... Isn't that kinda crazy? Barbara Bush read my blog...and talked about Cleve. I never really think about who all could be reading this, but when I hear something like that it becomes a reality that, yes, my words are out there. For anyone to see. That's a little scary...and cool at the same time. And let me not forget to throw out there how randomly awesome Andrew is. First of all, who the heck decides to walk across America? That guy. Who the heck walks across America and runs into past Presidents? That guy. I mean, really. He's spectacularly spectacular and I love hearing about all of his adventures.
I know I'm forgetting things because I seriously felt like I was going to explode with things I had to write about, but now I'm drawing a blank. Ah, well. It's almost bed time anyway.
I hope this blog finds everyone well. I will be back next time I can part the fog long enough to write something legible.
Do me a favor? Remember Cleve this next week. His two year angelversary is on the 20th. Two years too damn long. <3